Who The Fuck You Looking At?

I’ve had some time to get to know myself

All the fucking time in the world to dwell on who I may be

But don’t you know this shit don’t come easy

Coming and going, going and coming

All the time to switch it up on a motherfucker

All the time, but no time

Don’t know why I do what I do

Gotta keep moving and ‘do what it do’

But why lie and say everything is alright

When I know damn well everything is not fine

You live and you learn

You go and you earn

Everything is learned

Old habits never die, they just continue to multiply

Save me from myself and I’ll do the rest

At my very best

All the fucking time in the world to dwell on who I may be

But never on the person that’s standing right in front of me

Tender

 

What The Fuck Is To Come?

Do you ever think about what is to come? Where the fuck will you be? Will you even be here? What if you die before then? Will you make it that far? You don’t fuckin know. Ya know, I have high hopes for myself. So many dreams and hopes. So many. Too many to fuckin count. What if you knew, what if you knew how the fuck I really am? Would you judge me, would you give a fuck? You don’t fuckin know. I don’t fuckin know. Who the fuck knows? Shut the fuck up bitch, because you don’t fuckin know.

Better

Thoughts of a 20-year Old

AM I DOING THIS RIGHT?

WHERE WILL I BE?

and the most important question of all:

WHAT. THE. FUCK. AM. I. DOING?

These questions consume my mind weekly. At times I feel inadequate. Because at times it seems as if I’m just not “there” yet – whatever “there” means. Perhaps this is due to the fact that there is pressure to achieve and do things by a certain age. It’s this condescending statement that always gets under my skin, “Well you’re [insert age] years old now” so basically you need to have your shit together. Well guess fucking what?! I don’t, not like you want me to have my shit together. I’m still learning and figuring shit out. There’s so much pressure to get “there” but I’ve realized that “there” is only a concept. There’s no such thing. Everyone moves at their own pace, lives their own lives, and does what the hell they want to do. It comes a time where you have to realize you are the one that is living your life, no one else. Take those outside opinions with a grain of salt and make sure you’re in tune with the star player in your life – yourself.

BRI.V.M.

Once You Realize How Far You’ve Come

You’ll start to realize how much you’ve grown. How much you’ve changed for the better. You’ll begin to realize your worth. And now that you look back on how you used to be – all the doubts and insecurities that consumed your mind day in and day out– you realize everything makes sense. It wasn’t time yet. There was no need to rush past all those insecurities and doubts because as of today, you are where you need to be. And you were where you needed to be those three years ago. And you will remember that you’ve come so far and only you will know how much you’ve grown. Nobody can tell you shit because only you know.

Bri.V.M.