A rumbling in the distance. A blaring horn. Vibrations throughout the body. Stillness in the dark. Ancient instruments. Running water. Quiet thoughts. Deep breaths. Doors slamming. Heavy footsteps. Clanking ice. Squeaky bed. Murmured voices. Flickering light. Roaring engine. Shadows. Dozing eyes. Soft skin. Sore limbs. Pink background. 11:31. Incoming Call. Excited shrieks. Overwhelming gratitude. Teary eyed. Late. Night.
I always envision myself sitting on the top of a soft lush green hill surrounded by hilly mountain tops taking in the vibrant colors of the sky as the sun sets. This is my calm, this is my peace, this is my joy. This is where I am nothing at all. I just exist. Nothing more, nothing less. I Am.
Time is always ticking, never ending clicking. Countdown…4,3,2,1…start and never stop…on and on to the very top, breathe in breathe out, give it all you got, never a moments rest, this is your test, you gotta be the very best but remember not to stress, because que será será and you’ll always go very far.
And in the end?
…all you have is the memories…
And when you become idle for too long…you slowly destroy yourself, and you enjoy every second of it.
And what if I don’t make it to see my 22nd birthday? What if? Life comes and goes. Let me live a glorious life, because death? – It’s forever.
Hair in the wind in the backseat of this chevy impala
Boys tryna holla
But I don’t mind
Because I got all the time
Puffin on a fat one
Thinking I’m cool
Pass me the rum
Time to get a little buzzed
And fall in love
If only for a while
Make me feel nice
Hold me so tight
Never let go and say u got it under control
Let’s make the night last
Don’t want it to go too fast
Because it just might pass
Right before our eyes
I gotta go
Watch me disappear into the night
Let the sun rise and then you’ll feel alright