Listen Up!

I’m a little drunk

Leave me the fuck alone

Can’t get no better

Because what the fuck do you know

I ain’t thinking straight

But then again I think I am

My clearest thoughts emerge

I know who I am

Sipping from this cup

It’s time to double up

I laugh at myself

Because this is who I am

Don’t wanna hide it

I wanna hide it

Because I ain’t proud

Or am I

Because my brightest ideas come alive

All the time but no time

Lonely as fuck

But who gives a fuck

Because I got me and my thoughts

Wouldn’t want it any other way

But just like today

My brightest ideas come in the night

Just hope I’m ok

To make it alive

Just let me sip and drown

I ain’t trying to go down

Revelation

Moody Bitch

 
Moody

I hate this feeling. Feeling helpless, feeling stuck. It keeps building until I explode. And when I explode, I explode with a vengeance. Hateful words spew from my mouth. Hot tears roll down my cheeks. The back of my hand bruises from the rage I unleash. And then everything becomes silent…

BRI.V.M.

Thoughts of a 20-year Old

AM I DOING THIS RIGHT?

WHERE WILL I BE?

and the most important question of all:

WHAT. THE. FUCK. AM. I. DOING?

These questions consume my mind weekly. At times I feel inadequate. Because at times it seems as if I’m just not “there” yet – whatever “there” means. Perhaps this is due to the fact that there is pressure to achieve and do things by a certain age. It’s this condescending statement that always gets under my skin, “Well you’re [insert age] years old now” so basically you need to have your shit together. Well guess fucking what?! I don’t, not like you want me to have my shit together. I’m still learning and figuring shit out. There’s so much pressure to get “there” but I’ve realized that “there” is only a concept. There’s no such thing. Everyone moves at their own pace, lives their own lives, and does what the hell they want to do. It comes a time where you have to realize you are the one that is living your life, no one else. Take those outside opinions with a grain of salt and make sure you’re in tune with the star player in your life – yourself.

BRI.V.M.