Because I’m present in this very moment. I’m taking everything in and I’m Ok. I see myself, I know who I am. I am me. I am whole. I am here. I am present.



What The Fuck Is To Come?

Do you ever think about what is to come? Where the fuck will you be? Will you even be here? What if you die before then? Will you make it that far? You don’t fuckin know. Ya know, I have high hopes for myself. So many dreams and hopes. So many. Too many to fuckin count. What if you knew, what if you knew how the fuck I really am? Would you judge me, would you give a fuck? You don’t fuckin know. I don’t fuckin know. Who the fuck knows? Shut the fuck up bitch, because you don’t fuckin know.


Thoughts on Turning 21

It’s official, I’m 21. I’ve been on this earth 21 years and I’m feeling every emotion right now. I’m even getting teary-eyed writing this post. More than anything, it feels good to be alive. I made it to see 21 when many children and teenagers don’t. I’m very proud of how far I’ve come and no one can take that away from me. I’ve accomplished so much in so little time. Best believe I will continue to prosper and accomplish more than I could ever imagine.

I spoke with my papa earlier today – he told me my grandma would be proud. I’m sure she would.

          BRI. V. M.




Here’s to 2017

You are here. In this very moment, you are alive. After all that you have been through this year, you are here. How does it feel? …Bittersweet? But it’s out with the old and in with the new. And this is to 2017. A year in which you will live your life like its golden. A year in which you will fall madly in love with yourself. A year in which you will samba to the beat of your own drum. A year in which you will laugh a little more and enjoy the little things. A year in which you will spread peace and happiness to those around you. A year in which you will believe in yourself a little bit more. A year in which you will kick ass. A year in which everything is possible. This is to your hopes, your dreams, and the endless possibilities. This is to 2017.


Inner Demons

This part of you isn’t accessible to others

Sometimes not even to yourself

Trying to claw your way through all the bullshit

It keeps pulling you back down

You can’t breathe, can’t see

Can’t reckon with what you’ve become

You’ve lost the way

Or maybe you never found the way

Or maybe the way lost you

It can’t be found at the moment

It’s buried so deep

So deep that perhaps it’s not ready to be found

What Is Yet To Come…

You don’t know. You’re obviously living life, but at the same time you’re just going through the motions. There are some situations that will happen that will undoubtedly shape who you become. And yes, there are situations that have shaped you into the person you are today, however, you feel as if there is still shit to come that will totally change you. You don’t know what, but it needs to happen for you to realize. Realize what? As to what you need to realize, you’re not sure yet. Perhaps it needs to happen for you to continue to grow as a person. Some shit you just have to experience yourself. And when that time comes, you will know.